cocked up-
Monday, August 31, 2009
(12:11 AM)
i dont know what the hell am i suppose to do with my life now. haish. everything i do seems to be wrong to him. oh my god just because i didnt go his place just now he cried cause he said we met for awhile only. i dont know what the hell can i do ready sia? everthing's cocked up now. i dont know to say i feel like i got a boyfriend or not. when hes not around i miss him like crazy but when hes around, nothing goes right for him. haish. i feel so damn useless. really do. i just feel like ergh! im so fucked up. flung my ofa exam. bev and afd is next week which im also going to flung. so glad. i guess. my life is too fucked up that i dont even care what happens. example when i go down without make up just now to slack and went down again with my pj to get bread. haish. i dont know whats happening to me. to my life. if only i can end it too soon. things would be great but nothing would come out good out of it. damn it. haish. im just waiting for him to POP in about a months time and i hope things will turn out better. if it still is the same then... ive just got nothing to say about it. i'll perhaps give up. haish. school hols in less then 2 weeks time. i cant wait to just relax and laid back which i dont even know if i can or not. haish. oh my god!! can i give up now??
and baby cut her hair. well she looks nicer. if got picture i post. hmm and shes confused to like whether she should like her new hair or not. so irritating. haha. stil love her though. and hmm well good news about her, she found herself. when i lost mine. done
