Wednesday, September 9, 2009
(11:49 PM)
i hope you'll be glad when you dont see it anymore.
good luck on your relationship alright dear friend.
i know you dont need me anymore, take your leave.
i dont mind.
i know how you feel.
im sorry.
if you think you ever need me, i'll be here:)
love you dear friend.
life has been bad. seriously. it has been the worst two months ever. like out my whole entire life. i dont know why. every now and then i just keep crying thinking of all the events thats been happening. fights with me. fights over me. what the hell is going on. what the hell is happening to my life? i, elly myself, dont even know. fuck all these shits. fightings has been going on days and days. im sick and tired of all these. i really am. when will it all stop. friends that i have lost, was the last thing i ever wanted. but i just have to go through it. to make things better. people that i made them angry or sad im sorry. didnt mean to. im just being too i dont know. can i say ego? maybe. all i can say people change. and i just lost and drown myself in this deep whirlpool. that why im like this. for people who know me well enough and has been close with me all this while, should know. im sorry for all the inconvenienced caused towards you and your loved ones. fuck my life. i need the old me. when things get perfect, i took advantage of it. when things goes wrong, now i regret. damn. i hate this life right now. im craving for me. for elly. the old me. the life which i used to have. that was the first time when i met you sugar... i dont plead the life when i was single. it was fun but theres still somthings missing. now when ive got it. i tend to waste it. what the fuck am i doing? im losing my friends. im losing love. im losing control. im losing everything! ergh!! im fucking paranoid of myself. this may just be a barrier for me to go through but i cant. im suffocating. its too tough oh dear god. haish. i'll just have to try to hang on. carrying myself with my heads low. i just want to move on. be a new me. not bitch. just elly...
"21 Guns"
Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside,you're in ruins
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins
Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died,you're in ruins
ps: chorus cut
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