Tuesday, October 27, 2009
(11:34 PM)
had a good chat with my workmate that really changed my thinking about something.
what's LOVE? just a word or is it something more?
well love can sometimes makes the world go round and wrong at the same time. like in my previous post, things goes smoothly for the first time and then go bonkers. i guessed i just noticed that mine didnt turn out that way. mine was yeah well good when it started out for a month or so then it changed. he didnt show any love nor concern but i know he actually does have humanity.
things changed, time passed and despite everything; he still came back. whether i accepted him or not, he is still there. no matter what my friends say or how much they hated him, i still need him. despite the embarrassment and every shit that we went through, we are still together. like people call it "SHIT HAPPENS". perhaps thats life. you cant run away from anything. what more problems..
problems will always rise no matter where you are and who you're with. the fact that i stayed and always pulling my words back and saying sorry is i know that i cant live without him. like a friend said, 'you;re so used to having him around elly. thats why its hard to let go. ' he's changed MY life. he's changed MY thinking. emotionally and physically. yeah i cant stand his stupid jokes and fucked up attitude, but thats him. and i love him for that. he does makes me smile despite the tears that he brought upon me. he was the only person that i do things for. mostly whom i actually listens to. not being the happy-go-lucky me anymore perhaps just isnt a bad thing. he can be a jerk but i know he dont mean it. idiotic boncet!! :)
Labels: i know i love you too much to let you go.
