Sunday, October 25, 2009
(11:03 PM)
things have changed since i first knew him. yeah like everyone knows, when it comes to first few meetings and all, everything seems perfect not till you know their true colours. haish. well yeah been there done that. and way lots of times that it. he just scolds me anytime and anywhere he likes not thinking where we're at nor who we are with. yeah at times it can be embarrassing but not the fact of being in public but in front of his family.
things aint getting any better since we got back together. he's still being rough. cold not so. well he's just different now the way he treats me in front of his friends. sometimes i just wonder why. waht more especially with his girlfriends. haish. just wondering what i can do right now to make myself happy. work? nah. friends? maybe. rot? i suppose. haish. time and time again history just repeats itself. getting sick of it but im holding on.
and what more now, me..
im afraid of people scolding me. i just dont know. fear it. especially scolding by him. and when people gets angry yeah most of the time i dont bother, but now.. i dont know maybe i'll try make it up to the person. hell shit i aint me anymore. elly's changing. to what, im not sure myself. but i'll find out in time to come.
ps: i know somethings bad gonna happen honey.
