Monday, August 31, 2009
(1:38 AM)
well late night post but i just happen to by some few quotes and these caught my eyes.
it means so much to me. theres more. till next time...
cocked up-
(12:11 AM)
i dont know what the hell am i suppose to do with my life now. haish. everything i do seems to be wrong to him. oh my god just because i didnt go his place just now he cried cause he said we met for awhile only. i dont know what the hell can i do ready sia? everthing's cocked up now. i dont know to say i feel like i got a boyfriend or not. when hes not around i miss him like crazy but when hes around, nothing goes right for him. haish. i feel so damn useless. really do. i just feel like ergh! im so fucked up. flung my ofa exam. bev and afd is next week which im also going to flung. so glad. i guess. my life is too fucked up that i dont even care what happens. example when i go down without make up just now to slack and went down again with my pj to get bread. haish. i dont know whats happening to me. to my life. if only i can end it too soon. things would be great but nothing would come out good out of it. damn it. haish. im just waiting for him to POP in about a months time and i hope things will turn out better. if it still is the same then... ive just got nothing to say about it. i'll perhaps give up. haish. school hols in less then 2 weeks time. i cant wait to just relax and laid back which i dont even know if i can or not. haish. oh my god!! can i give up now??
and baby cut her hair. well she looks nicer. if got picture i post. hmm and shes confused to like whether she should like her new hair or not. so irritating. haha. stil love her though. and hmm well good news about her, she found herself. when i lost mine. done
confused;
Saturday, August 29, 2009
(11:53 PM)
omg okay today went to geylang to buke with honey and his ex classmates from ite. it was hell. so crowded and duh very stuffy. cant breathe. though more shops are up now since last week i went. hmm about noon i went out to find work at pasir ris. went to mac cheers and wild wild wet. well it was a fifty fifty for the wild wild wet job. well im hoping to get it. slide operator oi! then when i was at honey's place, maira called asking me why didnt i pick up cafe cartel's call which i of course didnt even receive. haha. i thank god i got the job and now guess what. got home told mom about it and she makes a noise on it as exems were coming. so i asked maira if i could start next week after my exams were over. she said no. now im in big trouble. im so dead. i dunoe what to do!! argh!!
wild wild wet please call me...
and about honey. haish. he scolds me about everything. everything i do seems wrong. damn im not a good girlfriend mann. freaking useless. haish. i feel so so dumb. im sorry honey i've been a good girlfriend. i feel that i so dont deserve you. but i still love you. alot...
Friday, August 28, 2009
(1:27 PM)
well its abit early to post but yeah. haish. i was in class just now and somehow i just felt like crying. i dont even know why. oh damn i miss him. i really do. he didnt contact me for the whole day yesterday. why the hell he broke his sim card. i feel so guilty. haish. i hope he really do book out today. i'll be waiting for any of his calls patiently. i just noticed im such a damn failure in love. really. like after so so long i've just noticed it. why cant things turn out like how i want it to be? why cant i just bring myself up to like forgive him? why am i being so stubborn? do i really want to end it? someone please help me find the answer. haish. im such a cuckoo. dumb me. i wish i had the answer to everything.
ps : honey i miss you so so much and i do love you. im sorry.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
(8:57 PM)
life has been bad but im trying hard. too hard i think. well i've got not much too say.all i need to say is im confused and just give me time alright. thanks. and i still love you a lot. trust me. ending the relationship may be the last thing i would want though asking for it umpteen times. i still need you honey. you'll always be my sugar bunch.
and oh! i got sharifah's number from qb. haha. me and kasha missed her like crazy. after f1 training the other day, just didn't see the sight of her. like she say "maybe we're not destined to meet" haha! funny or what. though i stil love her:)
now with baby, sop and aida slacking at starbucks and trying to do my ofa on my lap but im like stuck and kasha still haven't call me! where is she when i need her! damn. okay done. bye. and and sop's eating nasi ayam beside me! so tempting la oi. haha. oh adding. hmm reiko and rashid joined us soon after. azhar came down at about like almost 11. oh god guessed what? we were camwhoring the whole time there. haha. and me and sop...conjoint twins. haha. funny. i really had a good laughter after some time. thanks guys. i love you. and hmm all the time im acting weird and all. baby looked at me like im form some other planet. her face so funny. haha. well my night was gorgeous. i enjoyed it.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
(11:22 PM)
omg.today today today.lots of things happened today.haha.i didnt go school.thats first.second went to look for job with faris like everywhere.haha.we went to toa payoh then to marina then to pasir ris.he so noisy cause he tired.haha.so fun.this is funny.you guys must know.we were at city hall.so i was suppose to go marina to go cafe cartel.despite knowing and saying that its at marina.i confidently went to raffles shopping centre to find for the place.haha!!then we like walked everywhere.called maira she say it was at basement beside 711.so i went la to basement.find find cannot find.then...
faris: ay kau kene g marina kan?
elly: ah la.asal?ay 711 mane sia?
faris: kau tau tak ni raffles shopping centre??
elly: oh eh?ay ah la!!!
i just kept on laughing.faris like wanted to kill me.he also like idiot follow me.haha.dengs.okay then the last pitstop was at pasir ris.we left at about 5.30pm.freaking tired.cannot go tamp ready.so he took 3 and i waited for 5 alone.waited for the bus since 5.30 tau!then it only came at like 6??shit it.but im cool.oh yeah.fought with honey like crazy.really pissed off with him.and i think he throw his sim card or something i dont know.now theres no way at all for me to contact him.haish.just want to let him know i love him lots.and i am damn angry with him:)if can i would want to kill him right now and he got lots of things to say to me on friday after i breakfast.haha.if not later my fast batal if i angry.hehe.and also after breakfast just now,went down to starbucks to slack with baby, azhar, an, reiko, hafeez, zaki, aidil.some stayed some left.so yeah done!
Labels: tiring day
Monday, August 24, 2009
(4:20 PM)
oh my god. yesterday was super super tired. okay first things first i went to breakfast at boyfriend's place. caused he forced me too as no one was home.didnt want to la alright. i've never breakfast at any of my ex-boyfriend's place la sey.so paisey mann. haiyo. then after that honey booked in at 9.30pm so we left the house about 8pm and knowing that he's actually late. haha. how cute.
aida supposed to come but well...met baby syakirin at simei and took a train to paya lebar for our supposedly 'short' trip to geylang. maira then joined us from tanah merah station. dropped at paya lebar and walked rounds and rounds around geylang well without getting anything cause we were waiting for hall to like reach which was like at 1opm mann. hmph. then soon after when we wanted to like cross at joo chiat complex, maira saw her nenek. so we just crossed as she did too. then when we wanted to cross to the food section, we suddenly noticed maira was missing. we lost her! haha. me and baby burst out into laughter not knowing what to do. called her and she didnt pick up.i t was freaking funny. but baby saw her at the other side of ther oad talking to her nenek. we just kept on laughing. then there was this point of time where baby almost tripped against something, maira shouted 'ah amek kau!'haha. all of us laughed our ass off. like busted but cute. like melatah la katekan. haha.
it was 9plus and we got thirsty. sat down at haig road to have a drink. i had sugarcane lemon. it was freaking nice mann! nicer than beach road.haha. oops. we walked a whole round just to get back to paya lebar mrt to fetch hall and somehow me and baby needed the loo. thus, we went to singapore post. and...
maira waited for hall downstairs. me and baby went up to 2nd level to the loo. saw a group of girls. well we didint say anything.just act normal. when we went out, you know what happened??
girls: ay chickies ar chickies*chuckles+lauging*
me and baby kept quiet.
girls: trying to sweet us but not working
me: turned to look
girls: laughing loudly
baby: ay lesbian eh.sape ajar sweet tak betol.bapak kau eh?
me: agaknye ar tu.tak la mak dorang la lesbian.
me and baby laughed our whole way through
mann what the hell is their problem??!like what. we're all girls who have pussy. unless they are transvertite. damn assholes. just what was their motive? no life bitches. poor thing. hmm...no offence but yeah. get a life mann if you're reading this. damn you people. reached home at 12am. freaking wiped up! so didnt had the chance to like update.
fasting!
today my first day. haha. dont ask me why its my first. well things are going well. just hmm freaking tired. i couldnt wake up in the morning. but well forced myself to get up. did not go for ofa though. and this friday is ofa exam. smart elly. i know. haha. and next week comes bev and afd! haiyo. stress!! though just go on with life lor. now im inside the computer lap waiting for joanne to finish her elearning then we're going off.at last can go home and sleep! hehe. but actually not cause i've got to cook for me and mummy for buke. volunteered. cant wait for it! i hope the fish will turn out good. will update later. haha. good day.
to be continued...
Labels: fucked up bitches
Sunday, August 23, 2009
(12:57 AM)
he said my life was cock-ed up!
just when i said i love him
and shit happens
Labels: shit happens
Saturday, August 22, 2009
(11:28 PM)
hey hey people!well well. fasting was a mess. haha. honey camo over to my place in the morning and lied to me saying that he had to meet his PO at 1 when its suppose to be at 2. after getting ready and all, he suddenly told me that it was canceled. shit him. though i still love him. haha. hmm we caught a movie at shaw century. i know what a place but yeah got la something kan. we watched 'THE PROPOSAL'. damn that movie was awesome. really splendid. i loved it alot. i mean it actually brought me to tears. i didnt know it could be that touching. so for those who's thinking about watching it, dont think! watch! haha. some parts were hilarious too. eventhough the ending is abit expected but its still worth watching. trust me. girls especially, you would love it.
me...
wondering why i've been pretty emotional and sensitive nowadays. been crying for weeks. sometimes for no reasons and sometimes with reasons. can tear for like over 4 5 times per day. even watching tv. haish. i guess my mind's just caught up-with what, i've got no idea. i just hope it wont affect my upcoming exmas. about mom...some problems are coming up. not going to elaborate further here though. cried like crazy just now in honey's arms. i was freaking upset that i made him pissed off. dont know whats wrong with me now. well maybe red light's coming or maybe just me. anger management problem. haish. everthing in my life now is wrong. somethings are just wrong or maybe missing. im gone just blown by the wind. and i freaking need a job to support myself and honey. someone help me.
;still standing strong and trying to be positive
baby i love you and im sorry for shits that i've done
Friday, August 21, 2009
(11:11 PM)
first things first
MY BABY DID NOT BOOK OUT TODAY LA SEY
he got guard duty
but he booking out tomorrow
and is first day of fasting
cannot hug cannot kiss
but there is still after breakfast
haha
i miss him
i love him
okay about todays school. oh my god! my CMS CA3 presentation has finally ended. im so glad. and i got compliment. i felt grateful though but i dont know if my grades were affected or not. haish. and guess what something which i did expect happened. haha. complaints. though its not the fighting one but the funny one. its about HER. which my groupmates should know who. joanne decided to like walk back with me. wow! haha. well told her to walk slowly so she couldnt feel the tiredness. anyway, she wouldnt have felt it cause she was complaning her whole way through. haha. she was blabbering about how nasty SHE was and called HER ill-mannered brat. haha. funny or what mann. joanne was like cursing and swearing non stop. i swear my ears could bleed. haha. really damn funny. but still everything went smoothly. i guess. only that we took abit long as i was the last speaker, the teachers asked me to wrap it up. but the rest were cool.
and then..
after school, stayed home. was about to get ready to meet maira before meeting honey. then he called at about 4 saying he might not book out cause he had guard duty. was upset but what to do right. wear nice nice ready then tak jadi go out. so paisey. haha. slacked with aida and maira till about 5 and aida went to meet dydy and maira went off to work. me...went home. aida commented my life was boring. haha. idiot. then the best part was. sis texted me at about 7 asking if i wanted to go dinner. phew! i could like go out. haha. we went to Chat Masala proceeding to Siglap Centre cold storage after that to get her groceries. how cute. and oh yeah! i got my favourite chips which i had it for days in melbourne. damn i like it alot. i missed melbourne sey. after done with sis, head to starbucks to slack with syakirin, mizi, ryan and azhar. they laugh like crazy basically over everything. haha. ryan said he dont know why today he's been doing stupid things. weird but cute. okay thats all i got to say. tired la. haha
ps: talking to honey now...
maira & me
today;
Thursday, August 20, 2009
(11:18 PM)
went schoolback home
watch tv
went out to meet cha and maira
then sop and baby came along
saturday fasting...
AND TOMORROW MY HONEY BOOKING OUT!
so happy
i miss him
i love him
BORING!
and oh shit tomorrow is like my damn CMS CA3 presentation
oh my god its finally coming and want to get it over and done with
i hope my groupmates and especially ME do well
im freaking nervous scared
i hope i do okay to at least pass mann
hope no fightings, no dislikes, no complains
to be continued tomorrow....
really long post
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
(11:03 PM)
THE DEVIL
yesterday, i was playing card games. so i was playing this philipines card game called tong yit or something like that. then i shuffled the cards for the first time, cause i lost. then a 6 diamond dropped out. thus i took back the back and reshuffled. well conincidentally the same 6 diamond fell out again. zi cheng said "elly one more time you die." well equals to bad luck i guess for chinese. haha. the game is limited to 3 people and though none of us got the card. i was thrilled. zi cheng said again "skali inside the deck." and it was true!! i was playing then suddenly the card i got from the card i got from the deck was a DAMN 6 DIAMOND!!! oh my god.
666 = the devil
what the hell was happening?and somehow the rest of the whole dayi kept quiet. had no mood. but till i did my accounts. haha. funny + weird but i started smiling and being me thats the important of it all.
though didnt go out the whole day after school which ended at 5. stayed home watched tv and rot. watched jihan. my favourite suria channel show. okay done.
ABOUT TODAY
- BEV progress test was cancelled. yay!
- I was so eager to go SW1 and it was cancelled as well.
- I wrote my application form for secret recipe. hoping to get it
- Slacked at Starbucks eating nasi ayam. haha!
aida & me
aida & sop
reiko followed by me & sop
me & reiko & aida
and and last but not least...
actually got picture of me using rashid's helmet but cant find it(:
Labels: the devil
Monday, August 17, 2009
(8:03 PM)
HOT LOVE
elly
honey loves this picture!
t.mart mac with no make up.fuckgly
my one and only matrep
BEAUTIFUL FRIENDSHIP
dear girlfriend.
Syakirin, Adly and me!
Club 21 Bazaar
Reiko and me
Baby and Elliee
Aida, Fifie and Elliee
My hot butch- Adly
Bestfriends
CLIQUES OF UQ0904D
the Formula 1 gate officials
jenn and me
best guymate ever.
he stunned me just now.idiot matrep.haha!
nicole and zicheng
fatin and zi cheng
im freaking bored so i post all these pictures!
wasted my money!
(7:21 PM)
haha.woke up at like hmm 9.30 when school started at 8??actually couldn't get up due to the stupid cough syrup which still hasn't cure my cough.sore throat okay la kan.nothing much happened today.well
I'M BROKE AND I'VE GOT NO CIGARETTE MANN!i really need a job soon.please save me someone;who can give me a job. and and also i wasted my freaking money on not nice laksa yong tau foo which cost me $5.40.oh my god.how expensive can food nowadays cost anyway.*frustrated*wont display the name of the place but syazwan, riza and faris would know.talked to honey on the way home and played psp and lost): couldn't concentrate.but nevermind.hehe.i wasted my freaking money!saving none for cigarettes.cool.haish
i love my monyet.
i miss him.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
(11:46 PM)
name in i forgot what language.
well its my FIRST time doing this blog cause i was forced to.well i repeat i was FORCED to by issa and fifie.they did it for me.so im cool.haha.its like hmm 11.50 now.i got to like get some sleep.tomorrow school!!i so dont feel like going.alright short post.love you girlfriends.and thanks for this.beautiful girls of mine(: cheers you guys
Labels: my first post
