i love cigarettes and more

Saturday, September 26, 2009 (2:28 AM)

and saye rindu die sangat sangat. cant meet him these weekend due to F1. very sian la okay.

today was first day of F1 racing. omg it was superb la. first thing gotta tell you, the crowd is pretty huge. and hmm the sound is DAMN LOUD. haha. though didnt had my earplucks on cause it was of no use to me mann. haha. tomorrow's another day ahead. 12 hours of standing. imagine how bad can that be. and no more cigarettes. haiyo. but still trying to stand up okay. dont ask me why im still up despite being tired. haha. cause my body aches like cray but my eyes cant close. soon soon i guess.

ushers!

well these are gambar for first day of raya. i just post it up to laptop. haha.

dad, mom, sis and me

my beloved small family:)

Labels: a bit of everything:)

Friday, September 25, 2009 (12:56 AM)

i guess things are just meant to be this way. he'll never be happy with anything i do. im earning money for a reason. not that i want to work hard for nothing. well honey im sorry for not being able to make it to your POP night this thursday. it was by mistake i wrote schedule on the wrong day. im to blame but dont treat me this way. if you really did forgive me, why are you behaving this way and scolding me throughout? i know you needed me there but i cant make it. if i really do care only about my friends ans work, you can ask my friends themselves how much time have i spent with them since i started working. not as much as i used to. why do you keep scolding me? i hate it alright honey. dont you ever get it im trying to do things the way you want it? but you can never see it cause you dont see through me. you always think im just equally the same with your other ex gfs but you think back, would they wait patiently with your attitude like this and not playing behind your back while you're in camp honey? i doubt so. yes i know you wont trust me even if i say i didnt play your back. and i wont say a word about that cause its up to you to believe or not after what i've done for you all this while. baby look. i love you and thats it. ~~you're being unfair so change.~~

Labels: it's all about attitude

Wednesday, September 23, 2009 (10:41 PM)

oh my god! yay after so so long i went shopping! at singapore la okay. haha everytime shop overseas kan now singapore. actaully was suppose to shop with fifie la kan. then suddenly she came down to tamp then right, she wanted to look for a dress. so we like yeah look around. then suddenly she say 'aku tak bawak duit tau'. i was like what the hell? haha. but nevermind. at last i was the one who end up splurging. hehe. best oi. she ar. but it was fun mann. then we ate at kfc. all we did was talk and walk. smoke pon tak sey. haha. so weird. but really i hope that fifie had a fun time with me. wishing for another day like this. love you babe. thanks. and at last i got a plain top, a beautiful dress and a nice 3/4 pants. and a singlet for honey. oh before anything also i met ifah before meeting fifie. haha. but she rushed to meet her dear, yan at kovan. hmm..and oh oh! last two days ifah fought with yan la kan. then she called me okay crying. and i was freaking shock to like hear it la. tak pena pena la aku dengar ifah nangis! so weird and funny. hehe. but very cute okay. she really made me laugh. haha. she laugh she cry she laugh she cry. and lots of complains. hehe. i was just hearing and giggling at the same time. freaking weird la sia to hear her cry. da nangis burok. oopsie! no offence. but i still love her. heh. good thing, after everything, shes back with yan. phew..

Labels: splurging yet budgetting.hehe

(2:27 AM)

Year of Horse: 1990- Lutfi bin Sahib

Love: There is a Love Star coming in 2009. However, this Love Star is not a Marriage Star. That means you have a chance to meet someone you like. Both of you will produce the passion in love. But this relationship won't last too long. If you are married or already in love, then it's possible that a third party will involve your love relationship. Remember that your money luck is poor. If you cannot to handle the temptation, you might have to spend some money to end this short term relationship in the end.

Year of Sheep: 1991- Elliyana binte Mamat

Love: Neither a Love Star nor an Unlucky Star is coming in love area this year. Therefore the love fortune for Sheep people is fair this year. Your partner will complaint about your attitude on your love relationship because of your constantly absence of mind. Maybe the pressure from your job, you don't have good temper like before and lose your passion in love. In order to keep your love relationship, you need to pay attention on your words and deeds.

damn the words are so so true. if only honey was here to read this and he would understand. but im not suppose to believe in it. well i dont know mann. ergh! wont last too long? liking someone else? is what i fear really coming? haish. im waiting.

Labels: chinese zodiac.

(1:10 AM)

i dont know what to post today. all i can say is tired. work work work. gonna miss out on tomorrow's jalan raye with the boys due to work. stuck up. hate it so much. no one can cover my shift. mum's heading to hospital tomorrow and i cant accompany her. very the upset. hmm dad's on leave and no ones with him. very upset. cousins from kl's here to stay for a couple of days yet im working. very upset. honey on with his attitude as per normal. very upset. thats all i can say. im pretty upset over everything now. lifes cocked up. everything now is a problem. hate it hate this hate whats happening.

Labels: idiotic lifestyle now

him.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009 (12:07 AM)

this quote really caught my eyes. i was just browsing. i was thinking how could i possible not know everything when even the things i need to know to be happy is being kept. how the hell cn i lead through life this way. he's just being so unfair. really. dear please stop torturing my mentally. i swear i can go crazy. you're just trying to test my patience level. its not helping. let me be myself. i need to control my own life back. im not perfect. and lastly im not you. and its hard being me when you're there telling me what to do and not to do. im not a kid. yes like you said i cant take care of my own life cause i am suppose to lead and you guide not you lead and i guide. when i oppose you, you get angry. you said i did nothing right and nothing that makes you happy. if you think you're always right, fine. you win. but let me have my say. you yourself know that how much sacrifices ive done and made for you. countless penny and tears that were used. baby all i need it to be myself. if im not me and i cant be me, whats the point of being with me as when the first time you fell in love with me was when i was me, elly. i dont even know who i am now. if you think im not perfect for you, why stop me from leaving? cause you know you cant do without me and neither can i.

selamat hari raya!

Sunday, September 20, 2009 (1:10 AM)

to all babyloves and bloggers who are muslim,

well a HAPPY HARI RAYA to all alright.

sorry cant leave a text or so cause its too much to cost. haha.

elly here just want to say harap salah silap boleh dimaafakan dan makan minom dihalalkan.

kalau la terkasar bahase atau buat korang marah ke ape ape la kan,

forgive me as all those are not meant nor coming from the bottom of my heart.

elly tak simpan dendam nye orang.

orang nak jalan dorang jalan tap elly tak akan:)

but whatever it is i wana say sorry again for any wrongdoings that ive caused and also the inconvenienced due to my attitude or something yeah.

alright about today. oh my god was suppose to come in work at like 10am okay. then i came at 12pm cause right spent the whole night at honey's place doing what.. help him out henna which he thought mama would not see which she obviously did. he did a full back sia! haha and hmm also his arm. damn his arm damn nice la kan. then his back satan's face cacat. his brother la. suddenly the face very cengkong. haha. then ended work at 5.30pm just now. the crowd was crazy today. oh yeah weekend. hehe. well worked with a someone whom i just worked for the first time with. she's fun. and guess what?! she's taller then me la kan. like a few cm i think. and damn she's freaking 16!! so angry. haha. kidding. wana be so tall for what right. hmm well disturbed auntie bee hong for my whole shift then. hectic sia. so kecoh. i like! hehe. then eventually due to the many orders i eventually ended a bit late. about extra 15mins i guess. lucky bf is not done with his cso. phew.. after punched out, changed then smoked then took 21 to meet bf. met his friends at eunos. after that kan kan. walked to thus food place la pataya garden cause i craving for my tom yam soup la okay! then yeah it was close. cibs la sangat. we walked to joo chiat food centre and omg i regret getting the food from the seafood stall. pikir mane pe sodap la kan. but no it was quite sulky. and bf's chicken fried rice and my seafod fried rice taste exactky the same!! contradicting right. phuck. ergh. well who cares. thats over. and hmm then we walked around bazaar getting my skirt and bf and me bought the exact same 3/4 except that mines black ans his white. good la. i can wear for F1. hehe. prepared mann. then went back to bf place and got bak home about 11. had to clean my room and its been damn damn long time since i pespire that much. good excercise but then too bad. i took some dendeng into my stomach right after. haha! best oi! hmm and bf bust cleaning the house as well. so cant talked to him. damn it. well i might be turning in soon. quite tired. or maybe need to help mom with something first. alright then take care care and nights. effing tired from walking and working..

Saturday, September 19, 2009 (12:21 AM)

work was like slack actually. not the part when i was left alone la. suddenly crowds came. as it was raining, the tourists who was from wild wild wet came over to mac to have their coffee and cakes and stuff. that makes the crowd. but despite that, the crowd actaully dropped 3 times than usual. that shows how bad the economy is mann. haiyo. then i had to work a little more. suppose to end at 6 but i punched out at 7 due to people who put schedule but didnt turn up at last. what to do. was late for home. once i got home, eat bath then got ready to meet honey. first got cigarrets for me and honey. waited for a cab but omg. there was like none. all of them was hired. freak. then theres this couple who was like cb okay. like yeah i can see they are waiting. like of course im going to give them the leeway what. idiotic. kulit same la dey. dont act childish can. wah piang ay. well who care. the bus came and i just took it. went to tamp one to get my last min raye shoes. then honey went to uni qlo to get a nice 3/4 pants. not bad. he and taufiq got the same one. then hmm i went to uob to pay mom's credit card. headed off back to honey's place to slack. da. this should be all for today la kan. oh oh. going back to honey's place in awhile i guess. tired la okay. tomorrow working at 10am! argh. by right 12pm sey. change shift. people cant come lor. what to do.. and going geylang tomorrow with honey and a couple of his friends to eat my tom yam and buy dendeng! okay da. will update about it later tonight :)

questionaire;

(12:00 AM)

attached , single , crushing ?*
-* attached la okay.

What's his/her fullname ?*
-* lutfi bin sahib

Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend ?*
-* none other than elliyana binte mamat :) trust him.

Do you know a secret about him/her?*
-* hmm well i guess

Is this person older than you ?*
-* yesiree! just a year

Has he/she ever cooked for you ?*
-* fry eggs. haha. me cook for him.. ALWAYS

When was the last time you thought of him/her ?*
-* now? haha. everyime actually

Do you have a nickname for each other ?*
-* he calls me gemok and i call him monyet

How many times do you talk to this person in a week ?*
-* when im free from work but weekends definitely!

Why is this person your 1st top list ?*
-* he's second. family comes first

Have you seen this person cry ?*
-* first time on my birthday! haha

How long have you known this person ?*
-* coming 8th months plus friends coming 10 months

Have you ever been to the mall with this person ?*
-* hmm no. duh! isn't it obvious??

Have you ever watched movies at his/her place ?*
-* should be la. haha

If you ever moved away would you leave him/her ?*
-* i'll try not to. depends on him

Have you ever given this person something ?*
-* contradicting. haha. too much too count

Have you ever done something stupid with this person ?*
-* not that i know off. shout in the middle of crowds i guess? counted? haha

What is it that you love doing with this person ?*
-* making him happy and seeing him smile. too cute to be true

Do you hate anything about him ?*
-* his attitude! haiyo. headache ar!!

Do you know this person's shoe size ?*
-* 11 US size okay. sing dont know. should be same

Have you ever worn this person clothes ?*
-* yeah. his bobshort and his tshirt when im at his place leaving some at mine too

Have you heard this person sing ?*
-* his damn hobby. naseb sedap. oopsie!

Have you and this person ever had a fight ?*
-* everytime. tired okay. when will it stop?

Do you know how to make this person feel happy ?*
-* by complying to what he says which of course i dont at times:)

Do you and this person talk alot ?*
-* yes. shouts included.

Have you kicked this person ?*
-* i wish i could but no. rather not. love him too much

Do you love this person ?*
-* of course!

Do you want to be with him/her forever ?*
-* if gods willing. yes.

Why ?*
-* a bonus question which i myself cant answer

List down names that you wanna them to do a survey ?
whoever knows hot to copy and past. haha sorry aida dearest. hehe

esp reiko and baby. anyssa nak?? :)

tiff.

Friday, September 18, 2009 (2:49 AM)

back from work again. as per normal. hmm today clsong was fun. worked with a new guy whom actually i found out worked ony twice a month. haha. since the managers changed. it ended late just now. due to my florr manager, xiang en who had a thorough check on everything. well one thing i can say. he is so far the best manager ever. liked him alot. not that the others are you know typical managers type but well so far he is the best. other than another one beth.

the damn thing about work is right.. the people. as in the customers. very funny and weird okay! first of all the thought MCCAFE was 24/7. unless its like joint with macdonalds la. then that might be different. even when we shut all the lights, they'll still ask. 'close huh?' can see right?? oh my god. people nowadays and second when everytime we do pre-closing, all the crowd came. starting no crowd. zilch. then when i came back from break.. ah amek kau. like dont know how many orders. haha. poor khai had to do it alone as like i say i was on break la kan.

baby came down along with reiko and hafiz to slack and did some work i guess. and you know what?! nurul syakirin aka baby actually waited for me to end work okay!! haha. how contrdicting. when she hates let me repeat hates waiting for people. and she actually can sleep when i doing closing. haha. cute right. well thanks dearest. i'll always love you. she's always been there for me nowadays.

got home, well dad ate my mcspicy burger. boo hoo. got oreo and normal cheescake for honey tomorrow since he's booking out. i miss him okay! the important part here is.. dad had a tiff with mom. most prob just now. when me and dad was like sitting down while i accompany him eat. suddenly he said this.

dad: im going to work on raye

me:why?its first day what. i purposely took off then you want to work

dad:dont ask me why

me:but why?(me being irritating of course)

dad then explained to me everything. i was like okay wth. small matter but yeah understand understood. dad's attitude. super sensitive but hey like please work things out mann. i dont want my first day to be like shit. come on like this also i want to work okay. double pay. hello?? ergh. damn it. im like quite pissed right now thinking of the situation. dad told me not to tell mom the reason of him wanting to work. hmm what should i do? continuing, i was also telling dad about my pay shortage and yada yada. then was asking him whether mom took mine and sis baju kurung already. then he somehow talked about sis. still upset with her i guess. cant elaborate here. sorry folks. and all he could say. ''this is all none of my concern" like haish. im left speechless.

alright got to sleep soon. after my stick. working at 11am tomorrow. nights! missing honey

Labels: extra long post:)

dying!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009 (3:02 AM)

ah! okay i just got back from work. first night closing. oh my god. effing tired la sia. what happened today. everything was fine. then when me and gan was about to do pre-closing which was like ten, then all the crowd came. non stop okay! till like hmm what 10.45 or so. or then just now they had some filming for suria which of cause pull it further. eventually we thought they were done but no. haha. they were suppose to come yesterday but what i heard was that they didnt come. so i guess they had to rush all the shots today. poor them. and poor us! hehe. and somehow or rather, gan got scolded from xiangen as it was 2 already and we were still not done when we were suppose to end at like 12.30. see the difference. i got home at like hmm lets see, 2.20 i think. had a quick bite which i didnt even ficish my fillet o fish. just ate the fries. lazy to wake up for sahor la kan. haha lazy me:) and oh! i was walking out with gan to grab a cab. then this red mitsubishi evo just went off. and i think it was mikail the actor who was driving it. if la you people who he is. haha. cant see. tinted glass. what the driver did was... he drift. haha. in the middle of the night at ehub carpark. tak betol. but well what to do. no one was there. gasak kau la nak buat pe:) overall it was nice watching what they call "free show".

okay done. im lazy to type anymore. i wana bath and sleep!! another closing tomorrow..haish

missing dearest right now. didnt talk to him the whole day.

one go another comes-

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 (12:41 AM)

like okay go. been back since hmm lets see 11plus plus. haha. went down back awhile to transfer cah to mom's friend then met baby to accompany her smoke awhile. bumped into hakim and ryan as well. well hakim gave us a quite silly thinking question. irritating sia. haha. then got home and tried to sleep but cant. okay food was so so. not as good as teh tarik. boo hoo. now my tummy needs a rub. ass.

now the bad thing is. texted her telling her why i havent been texting her nor calling. like hello ive been working and my prepaid was low. and damn all she could say was EXCUSES. okay i mean i tried not to like get angry but sial ar.. she put words into my mouth and accused me of things i didnt do mann. fuck i freaking hate it la okay. ergh!

me & him. still trying hard to adapt to my new lifestyles. maybe i just cant change fully. i cant be what you want me to become. im me. and if you dont control me, i wont oppose to what you dont like me to do. get it? but no matter what i still love you and im missing you badly due to the 3 hours we met for that one week. haish. friends have been complaining where have i been. here actually. just busy working. and like everyone couples whos little boys are in NS. working on weekdays and litte boys on weekends. all i could say know. elly is just not the happy go lucky girl she used to be. and i guess that have to stopped. like forever i guess.

Labels: not living up to expectations.

shit:

Monday, September 14, 2009 (9:26 PM)

work was fine. well reached on time and i had a freaking stomachache. so you know la where i headed to. hehe. hmm ended abit late. didnt notice the time. shit plan today damn cock up sia. ergh! suppose to meet mom at abang fahmi's place then eventually called them and they were at tampines 1. nevermind. walked back to workplace as i was sort off asked to slack firat. then mom called again asked me to go home and bath first then go to abang fahmi's place. walked back again to bus stop. like fuck right. then when i reached home all ask me to bring dont know what shit things to pasir ris. and also telling me my aunt landed already but havent seen the sight of them yet. what shit. i was trying to be patient. it was like 9.27pm i think and they still not out when the plane landed at 8.32pm or somthing. well plane. cant complain much. shit then say want go back pasir ris then go simpang. confirm wont go what. cb. ergh. mom called again to tell me they'll make their way to simpang now. and here i am posting on blog. fuck who cares. make me angry right. let them wait. hmph. what more today's mom birthday okay! by the way happy birthday mummy. but you pissed me off. well got to go off now to simpang. see you again. tata

happy birthday mummy!

Saturday, September 12, 2009 (6:32 PM)

hello!

like i just got back frowm work. hmm to be precised is juat finished bathing. oh my the weather is freaking hot okay today. haish. bad thing i was on like morning shift which was like 10am-5pm. and i reached late this morning! haha. couldnt wake up mann. got a bit of scolding from manager. and my collegue was so shit. he was like 'third day of work already late'. haha. but im cool. want me do what right. not an early bird la. dont make me do morning shift can. haiyo. today was quite busy but not as busy though. things fying all over. then this shift leader of mine. 'wah they think what this want restaurant ar? want this want that.' haha cute la she. shes like my mentor. i guess. so far first 3 days of work has been good. hmm still the feeling of tired is rising. too long didnt work. damn.

why am i home now?

my dear boyfriend is on guard duty!! wah!

but meeting him tomorrow. and i cant wait.

he couldnt even escape by saying he had CSO which he really did.

the pti or whoever ar. alamak. no prove no prove.

well her i am tired and alone. so melodramatic:)

meeting baby and sop later i suppose. slack at MCCAFE downtown. haha

will update you again later. hope with pics.

ps: your girl's right beside you so quit staring.

Labels: im loving it.

work ethics-

Friday, September 11, 2009 (2:19 AM)

okay like oh my god. im effing tired but i cant sleep cause i having a damn bad tummyache. shit so many times. hehe. so here i am. haha. ended work at hmm 1 then eat smoke confirmed schedule and all shit all like 1.40am. long right. haha. and i didnt know it only takes like 9 mins to reach home. so weird. bimbo:) well conclusion okay first day of work was great. well they bully me abit la. haha but im cool. had to wipe the windows. so funny.

me: ay i cannot wipe straight sia. still got stains. how?

colleague: must hold the wiper properly.

me:okay wait i try.

colleague: you not pro la. how to do.

like ass right? haha. and life as a barista back again. despite the low pay, as long the environment is good, im fine. so far so good. ive only met like 3 of them out of dont know how many. the two guys was great. both senior beanie. and the girl.. well haha. heard some stories. but who cares. like one of them said 'always hear to sided. but better believe in yourself' thus, thats what i plan to do i guess. im just so afraid i cant click with any of them. hope so not. furthermore, havent heard any complains. haha. first day mah. oh the scary thing was. i was like happily doing my things. cleaning and all after doing the drinks then suddenly i saw one of them pointing to the window. like damn the managers was watching me. scary oi! i cant work sia if i got people staring at me. but i just realx only la. waht to do. cant possibly shoo them away right. haha. oh then i met marsha fee. i miss her mann! like so damn long didnt see her. and her borthday was 2 days ago. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIRL. haha. okay done lazy to type.

working tomorrow. then meet bf! yay...

Thursday, September 10, 2009 (3:45 PM)

Things got tough.

Im still trying to stand.

Alright i mean i was up not super late but late. thanks to miss ifah who called me and wake me up at 12plus plus. tried to sleep back but coulnt. damn it. now im like done bathing and gotten ready. actually not really ready but at least half:) still left with packing my bag. got to meet ifah at tamp then head off to pasir ris. will be my first day of work later and im really scared. oh my god. work phobia. haha. well wish me luck people. work ends at 1am so i doubt i'll be like blogging. i'll be busy looking for my 'bantal busuk' instead. haha. well happy fasting people. i hope everyday was as nice the past. wonders still lingers. being optimistic.

Labels: being positive

(1:20 AM)

everyone asks me the same question. why? im sorry i dont have an answer to it babies. im stuck and im lost. i hope this helps.

Labels: someone let me go

Wednesday, September 9, 2009 (11:49 PM)

i hope you'll be glad when you dont see it anymore.

good luck on your relationship alright dear friend.

i know you dont need me anymore, take your leave.

i dont mind.

i know how you feel.

im sorry.

if you think you ever need me, i'll be here:)

love you dear friend.

life has been bad. seriously. it has been the worst two months ever. like out my whole entire life. i dont know why. every now and then i just keep crying thinking of all the events thats been happening. fights with me. fights over me. what the hell is going on. what the hell is happening to my life? i, elly myself, dont even know. fuck all these shits. fightings has been going on days and days. im sick and tired of all these. i really am. when will it all stop. friends that i have lost, was the last thing i ever wanted. but i just have to go through it. to make things better. people that i made them angry or sad im sorry. didnt mean to. im just being too i dont know. can i say ego? maybe. all i can say people change. and i just lost and drown myself in this deep whirlpool. that why im like this. for people who know me well enough and has been close with me all this while, should know. im sorry for all the inconvenienced caused towards you and your loved ones. fuck my life. i need the old me. when things get perfect, i took advantage of it. when things goes wrong, now i regret. damn. i hate this life right now. im craving for me. for elly. the old me. the life which i used to have. that was the first time when i met you sugar... i dont plead the life when i was single. it was fun but theres still somthings missing. now when ive got it. i tend to waste it. what the fuck am i doing? im losing my friends. im losing love. im losing control. im losing everything! ergh!! im fucking paranoid of myself. this may just be a barrier for me to go through but i cant. im suffocating. its too tough oh dear god. haish. i'll just have to try to hang on. carrying myself with my heads low. i just want to move on. be a new me. not bitch. just elly...

"21 Guns"

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside,you're in ruins

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins

Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died,you're in ruins

ps: chorus cut

Labels: damn this life

at last!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009 (11:20 PM)

oh my god! yes ar just now was like my freaking last paper. im so glad. haha. and okay the bad thing was the paper was difficult okay. i swear. i dunoe la how my results will be but i guess im ready. ready to fail. haha. okay i dunoe what else to say. oh.. just now me and honey fought okay. i freaking angry but now okay ready. haha. i still love him. alot okay. i miss him freaking bad. now talking to him. he so cute sia. and he said this 'baby bobal la ngan i manje manje, my friend wants his phone' argh! he makes me melt sia. and a funny thing happened sia. honey's friend salim die die wanted nicole's number. and nicole duh trying to act innocent die die dont want to give. really funny. you should hear how honey tried to pester me. irritaing la. then salim talked to me. nicole hung up the phone on me okay! how sad. haha. then she said sorry cause she lazy to entertain. waha!

what else.. oh went to meet maira babygirl just now after breakfast. suppose to be looking fr shoes and bag. which i did but oh damn the shoe sucks. only found to pair which the price is quite reasonable plus the design is not bad either. most important thing! the heels are not high. haha. tall plus high heels is a no no for me. i was really attracted to this bag at.. okay i forgot hw to spell the shop name. haha. really cool. love the design. its somthing like the bag which i want from sis. she got it from armani xchange. and she still dont want to hand it over to me no matter how spoil it is. so angry. hmph. then me and maira slacked behind tamp mall till about 11 when doddy, raudah, laila and i dont know the other girl's name came. went back home and the stupid incident on top happened.hehe.

okay done! hoping for another good day tomorrow.

Monday, September 7, 2009 (11:11 PM)

lost lost lost.

today was my BEV paper. oh my god i swear its like freaking easy. i should have just what studied real hard. well okay the thing is i lost like 15 marks okay out of 70. bloody hell. stress aku. last question okay la. cant help it. didnt remember chapter 8 but actually i did study only that it didnt come to freaking brains. and oh my god! the stupidest thing was like i wasted 5 damn marks on factors of production. i totally forgot sia. okay since when did i even care about exams and all... last since n level. haha. im really hoping to get a good gpa. god help me. haish tomorrow... LAST PAPER! which is accounts; AFD. sucks. im like not studying. all i did today was school paper then change went to bfs place to pass something to his brother than accompany dayah then got cigarettes then back home and watched tv all day long. haha. cool or whats. and miss kasha scolded me for not studying. so sad. like my mom okay. but abit worst. hehe. sorry hunn. my bad. i still love you. and on thursday is my first day of work. im ready i suppose. haha. cant wait for it. money money money! okay done. saye lazy to type already

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Saturday, September 5, 2009 (10:47 PM)

today was just like any other weekend i suppose. but...beside it something funny happened. first things first was that i was suppose to meet bf at 12.45 but at that time he just went out of the house. he was late okay! he told me to come down at 1 but he came at 1.30 instead. he said there was an accident af afgahn, tamp st 21. so i was like okay. we took train to toa payoh to MCYS to meet his probation officer. naughty boy. after that we proceed back to my crib to like hang out and then he wanted to change to my shorts until he saw my roxy hotpants. he took it wanting to try it on. haha! and then suddenly a stupid funny idea struck him. he took by bra and my sleeveless and my cap and wore it. he still ask me for fake long hair. klakar pe. okay he asked me to snap some pics and there as you can see. haha! funny kan kan. i laughed non stop sia. damn him. never fail to make me laugh. i love you dear. oh then went back to his place after buke and slack with him all the way. as you can see, just got home. nights:)